I\'m so down....
Really trying to fight the urge to self harm at the moment. Don't know if I'm going to manage it tonight though.Had a horrible day. My Mum has her own problems at the moment so the past couple of weeks which have been really hard for me I've not shared with her. She was my rock and now it feels like I can't get any support because I'll burden her even more. She's even on medication herself now.See...THIS is what I do to people who love me! WHY am I putting them through this! They would be better off without me and all my problems!I had a therapy appointment today and because I'm spending a lot of time 'clammed up' (not talking to anyone about how I feel) I couldn't even talk to my therapist today. I just couldn't! I'm a total fuck up and I just wish I was dead!I just want to cut myself to make the feelings ease a bit just to make it feel less overwhelming. I don't know how much longer I can keep going like this!
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