I'm seeing things more clearly today

Walking to my grans today really helped me think about things, I noticed how it's times where My depression is here that I  really learn things about myself, like how I'm stronger than I thought, I survived through my darkest hours and I'm still here. Before I started taking meds, my head was a mushed up mess, I was constantly away with the fairies, and I would cry after every argument with my boyfriend like I needed him but now, If he left me, I feel that I would be strong enough to handle it and survive on my own. Right now I'm feeling a little apathetic towards him, and think he's the one with the problem because of the way he is to me. If theres a way to heal this relationship, I'm willing to try but if not, I know I can live alone.