I\'m running the Chicago Marathon this year!!!

Well, I'm still not sure I know how to feel about our new news just yet, but we both decided that we need a few weeks off of thinking or talking about anything that has to do with TTC.  I'm really okay with the test results.  I feel like this at least gave us some kind of answer and that now I won't be wondering month after month why I'm not getting pregnant.  I've decided to stop charting, stop checking cervical mucus and I've vowed not to buy any kind of tests unless absolutely necessary, for now. When I think he's ready, we'll meet with a specialist and decide what we need to do next. I don't think he's taking our news very well so I think I need to let him absorb this and accept it.  I know he'll approach me when he's ready.    So I did something kind of extreme to help me take my mind off things.  Today I just signed up for the Chicago Marathon which I will be running on October 11th.  I didn't sign up last year because I was pregnant.  After I lost the baby, I didn't sign up because I thought for sure I'd be pregnant by then.  And this year I really thought I wouldn't sign up because I thought I'd be pregnant, again.  Well I definitely have to stop putting things off because I keep thinking I'll be pregnant.  It just makes the anxiety worse.  Now that we've gotten this news, I almost feel at ease I guess.  I'm upset but now I can go on with my life knowing there's a reason.  But for now, I'm going to focus on my training and if I get pregnant in that time...well that'll mean we are truly blessed.   I might not be signing on as much here just because I need to focus on other things right now but everyone on here has made such an impact on my life.  I could never get through the things I've gone through without the wonderful women on this site!  I feel like I know some of you personally.  Thank you for all your support, it means the world to me!  And for all you new mommies-to-be out there, congratulations!!!!  I know I'll be there some day!