I'm on an upswing . .

. . .  but I keep thinking why
I .almost
didn't did,
forget
his birthday.
 
I once looked up to him
I can, if the sun is shining, change my face  &  smile as a memory floats by . . . 
time and place
and some sort of bonding 
physical, organic
a long embrace
still comforts me
even so