I'm Mood Swinging... Yay :(
Today I've been mood swinging more than normal again. I keep on getting hit with waves of depression and energy. They don't last too long, but they sure do get to me. I was sitting at CHI waiting to see the doctor for my pre-volunteer physical, and I just got hit by a huge wave of depression. I don't know what caused it, and I got some more of them last night as well. I just feel so hopeless when they hit. I guess that comes with the depression. I got over it pretty fast, but it still hits me like a hammer. I got some energy last night, too- I had to take some klonopin to knock myself out since it was after midnight and I still wasn't tired. I don't know what time I fell asleep. I got another one this morning and used it to go to the gym, and it lasted until about halfway through my cardio routine (about 10 minutes in), but it started a while before. Tomorrow I have to go to the gym and do strength training. Oh, the joys of Larissa!
I think that getting out of the house is helping me overall, though. I have lost some weight and I'm feeling better in general, even if I am feeling like crap some days. I need to be proactive and take charge of my health, since nobody is going to do it for me. I've been good about taking my medications, eating right and getting out of the house for weeks now. Meds I normally don't have a problem with, but since I started back on the Pill I take my night meds at the same time every night to make sure it works right. Morning meds come around the same general time, but nothing too severe unless I'm really tired and sleep till noon. I remember the days when I used to sleep until 2pm... that just seems so foreign now. I guess that's a good thing- it just shows that I am getting better. Change comes slowly and you have to just look back a bit farther and see the changes. Overall, though, I think I'm making progress.
Mood/Stress/Sleep: Mood I'm listing as bad, since I'm mood swinging and it's not good. Stress- no headache today, but I was a bit fussy so I had a cup of hot tea and felt better. It's almost like I'm getting hypomanic with the energy levels. Sleep- I got about 10 hours last night, from midnight to 10 something am.
Food: I was good today. Actually, right now I'm under my daily calories, so I'm going to have a bit of ice cream or something to make up for it. I had a leftover piece of chicken and some rice for breakfast, macos for lunch, a salad for a snack and regular dinner. I also had a cup of coffee and a hot tea plain. If I could only get these mood swings under control, everything would be good.
I think that getting out of the house is helping me overall, though. I have lost some weight and I'm feeling better in general, even if I am feeling like crap some days. I need to be proactive and take charge of my health, since nobody is going to do it for me. I've been good about taking my medications, eating right and getting out of the house for weeks now. Meds I normally don't have a problem with, but since I started back on the Pill I take my night meds at the same time every night to make sure it works right. Morning meds come around the same general time, but nothing too severe unless I'm really tired and sleep till noon. I remember the days when I used to sleep until 2pm... that just seems so foreign now. I guess that's a good thing- it just shows that I am getting better. Change comes slowly and you have to just look back a bit farther and see the changes. Overall, though, I think I'm making progress.
Mood/Stress/Sleep: Mood I'm listing as bad, since I'm mood swinging and it's not good. Stress- no headache today, but I was a bit fussy so I had a cup of hot tea and felt better. It's almost like I'm getting hypomanic with the energy levels. Sleep- I got about 10 hours last night, from midnight to 10 something am.
Food: I was good today. Actually, right now I'm under my daily calories, so I'm going to have a bit of ice cream or something to make up for it. I had a leftover piece of chicken and some rice for breakfast, macos for lunch, a salad for a snack and regular dinner. I also had a cup of coffee and a hot tea plain. If I could only get these mood swings under control, everything would be good.
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