i'm lost

i told one of my cousins that i have an eating disorder and she is trying to find ways to help me. i walked from my home to Walmart and i went in the bathroom and purged what i just ate at home. then i got on the bus to go to school and i purged one more time in the bathroom to make sure everything was out. i can definitely relate to Kristy's story and my mom is the same way with her mom. all of my mom's criticisms are almost identical to the voices in my head. and eventually i developed eating disorders to numb myself from all the problems that i was dealing with and all the people who i was just tired of dealing with. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=liR3spc9I7o