I'm Doing The Best I Can

I make no excuses for what I feel, or what is in my heart.  I know I am blessed with a good family, friends that God continually places in my life, and my precious pet.  I feel my life mission is to help others and be a friend.  Not someone to tell you what to do, but a friend.  It has always been my nature to help others, and it is the one thing that makes me feel good.
A lot of little triggers have come about the past two weeks.  Little memories that are causing my heart to be heavy, and hurt.  I can only say that I love my man, Richard, with all my heart.  And I love that I am still, and remain, his wife.
What pains me is that people look at me and say, you are so young, and pretty.  You have your whole life ahead of you.  Someday a nice man will come along.  Now, tell me.  Do you think that is anything that I want to hear?  I often choose to avoid people, which is not a good thing, and still don't know how to handle questions or inquiries in conversation.  I ran a bus trip this past Sunday, and someone asked what my husband did while I was running trips.  My answer was that he is in heaven, but he is always with me everywhere I go.  So, he is here.  Made me feel good, but uncomfortable to have to talk about it.
All I have come to realize, and have been told by my pastor, is that God knows the desires of your heart and he understands.  All I ask of God now is to allow me to live a peaceful life with Richard by my side, and fill it with wonderful friends and family.  People that understand me, and people that I can help.  That's all, that's all.