I'm Back in the Saddle Again!

Monday, June 22, 2009 – 8:35 P.M. So far, this has been a peachy summer -- not! First, we had nine straight days of severe stormy weather. Now, we are scheduled to have at least five days with temperatures in the 90s. My body just cannot adapt to this. I am sitting at home freezing to death. I finally turned off my air-conditioner this afternoon, got a lightweight blanket, and buried myself beneath it until I thawed out.   My depression seems to have gotten to a yearly low point during the past week I saw Dale today, and he said that he and Dr. Martin had spoken last week by phone. From the way he tells it, they had a long and lengthy discussion about me. I did not like the sound of that.   The two of them were quite concerned about the narcotics that were stolen from me. Dale had me tell him about the strange behavior of the nurse who had been here twice in less than four days. He agreed with me that something did not sound quite right. He asked me to give him the name of the Director of Nursing for my home health agency. I did that, and he said he was going to contact her regarding this and a few other things. He also said that he had a responsibility to notify the Adult Protective Services about the theft. Dale said that should have been done by the home health care agency, but we both had some doubts as to whether they did that. He said that he is going to talk to the director of nursing in a few days, and I have an idea that when he does so, all hell will break loose!   This Thursday, I am supposed to see a psychiatrist who prescribes my medication at the mental health clinic. Dale thinks that I need to have a change in antidepressants. I told him that I did not like the idea because I am allergic to so many other medications, and when I do make changes, I often wind up in the hospital. He said he would send a note to the doctor and then leave it up to the two of us to decide what should be done. I said that I would not change medications without the agreement of my Primary Care Physician.   Dale seems to think that I am stressed out because of some of the medical problems I have been having lately, the family counseling therapy we have been having, and a multitude of other problems that I have been going through. I agreed with him on that.   Last week, my niece's husband finally came to help me with some of the problems I have had with my computer software, my iPod, and my new cell phone. As my luck would have it, my computer software worked just fine by the time he got here. He showed me how to get my iPod connected to iTunes, but I still do not know how to download anything from iTunes to the iPod since I am not connected to something called a Wi-Fi network. I feel like throwing the iPod through the window. I bought my cell phone from Cricket, so he called the company in order to get the cell phone activated. The person he talked with said that it had to be taken to one of their stores in order to have it programmed. I told him I would take care of that, but have not felt like doing it yet.   I finally received an e-mail from my brother (after two weeks) this afternoon. He wants to come see me with the idea that we can go to a movie together sometime next week. I am not too keen on the idea since I do not feel as though he is being sincere in the way he feels towards me. Besides, that also runs into the Fourth of July holiday.   During my absence from DS, I am sure that I have missed keeping up with a lot of journals. I seriously doubt that I will be able to catch up with where I left off on all of them, but I will do the best that I can. If I should happen to miss some, it will not be intentionally.