I'm back......again

I don't really expect anyone to read this, and surely won't blame you if you don't. I have been a horrible friend to all of you, and I do apologize. I seem to have been in a "It's all about me" funk for the past couple of years or so. It's starting to get REALLY old. But, I have found that I miss writing so very much, it's the one outlet where I can really be me, and be my smart mouth self. Notice I said smart mouth instead of smart a**? That's another thing I'm working on, I'm trying to be more socially acceptable. I am at the age now (44) where I can see that it's not a good thing to not care who you might offend with your words and actions. Maybe I'm finally growing up, I dunno. Anyways, for those who would like to read further, here's a little about what's been going on in Deb's world:
 
1. I am still single, the divorce was final 9/22/09. That ended what had to be the most chaotic and stressful period of my life. I surely can't recall how many MS relapses I had, or how many times I did the IV steroids. Almost immediately after I got out of all that stress, my MS stabilized, and it goes without saying that I was a much happier person. It's still amazing to me just how badly stress can affect you physically.
 
2. I am so proud of myself, I have finally become responsible with money. Before G and I separated, we went through financial purgatory. Bankruptcy, foreclosure, you name it, we went through it. I quickly learned that in order to not have to go through all that again, I had to make some changes. Now, I have all my bills set up to be drafted out of my bank account. I just have to make sure that the money is there, which means that I can't go shopping any time I feel like it. When I DO go shopping and find something I want to buy, I ask myself 3 questions: What will I do with it? Where will I put it? and Will I be ok if I don't have it? Nine times out of ten, I end up putting it back on the shelf. I have also become the queen of thrift store shopping, I've got an incredible dress that I found at Goodwill, it was brand new w/tags still on, $138.00, and I paid $4.99. THAT was a moment of shopping nirvana.
 
3. I had a pretty bad MS relapse earlier this year. It started with numbness in my feet, and spread up my right side, ending with the MS hug on my LEFT side. This was the most horrible instance of the hug I've ever had, and it lasted about a month. I hope and pray to God that I never have it that bad again, I was almost to the point of going to ask my neighbor if he'd roll me a big fat doobie. I knew he would, which is why I didn't go. Anyways, I did a couple of rounds of the IV, and things are much better now. My neuro seemed to think that the Copaxone had stopped working, and wanted me to try Rebif. Well, I tried it alright, for about 6 weeks. I don't think I have ever felt so bad in my life. Flu-like symptoms out the ying-yang, depression, I was truly miserable. So I am back on Copaxone for now, and my neuro says that in about 4 months, the Fingolimod pill will be available. I've still got to do some research on that, I'm not sure I want to risk it with all the side effects I've heard about.
 
This is about all I can think of to write for now, I've probably bored you to tears already. Thank you to those that have read it, and to those that haven't, I love you anyway. I'll write more again soon.

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LarryLDN
LarryLDN

\"Almost immediately after I got out of all that stress, my MS stabilized, and it goes without saying that I was a much happier person. \"

48 hours after my split, 2/2006, a symptom that never remitted from my 2002 attack went away! just woke up 2 days on my own and noticed immediately! never came back, either.

2 months after the split, I had my last Cigarette!

Since 4/26/2006: It\'s been: Four years, three months, three weeks, five days, 42 minutes and 38 seconds. 47340 cigarettes not smoked, saving $13,018.74. Life saved: 23 weeks, 3 days, 9 hours, 0 minutes.
Since 08/08/07, spent $24,707, billed, on lawyer\'s fees.
LarryLDN
LarryLDN

2. we were in debt from 1998 through the split... 8 months later I paid us both out of the old debts and have been debt-free since!
LarryLDN
LarryLDN

3. LDN is what\'s keeping me Stable since 2003. no progression on MRIs through 2008
LarryLDN
LarryLDN

oh, I see I Mentioned LDN back in July... :) http://www.ldninfo.org is the site; also they just published a new .pdf book, check it out... http://www.larrygc.com/ms/ldn2010.pdf