I'm about to ruin it all.. again, like I always do :'(

I'm going down that track of not eating again, why do I do this, because I am beyond control. I don't actually have any reasons to why I do this other than I am just so incredibly sick of myself and my body. I know how devastated I will be when I won't be able to get the best grades in univsersity and maybe not even be able to finish the course, but it feels like there is just no stopping it this time. Its ended, I can't do this anymore. Goodbye good grades, 'cured' recovery (from my family and friends), I can't run any more, I'm fallen into its trap yet again. Thanks ED, its all your fault.. You are the ruins of my life.

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rexory15
rexory15

Oh No! Im so sorry honey!:-( please try to find someone to talk to that will listen and support you Im here if you want to talk I know how you feel I\'ve been battling Ana for 5 mos now! My body is falling apart! I have aches and pains all the time and everywhere and headaches dont get me started! Please fight honey dont let Ana win! You can do this! Dont get caught in her trap again! Im here if you want/ need to talk! Ok? Take Care and God Bless (((( hugs))))
sarasota34233
sarasota34233

You were doing better...nourishing your body...you are really going to confuse your mind, body, and soul. You have so much going for you...reach out for help...there is good help out there! You are young and the world is yours to take! Please don\'t let ed steal it from you...fight it so you can be the victor! Love your body and try to treat it well...it has to last you!!
libbylaz4
libbylaz4

I believe in you. You are stronger than this. I know you can do it. Dont be hard on yourself. Be hard on Ana. Xxxx sending love.