I\'m a dick head
I got drunk yesterday on a big night out. I started yelling at my boyfriend for "having an affair", Threw up, cut myself, then cried for a while.I'm really irritated with myself, I've acted like a prat and there was no need for me to self harm, I didn't even feel like doing it I just did it for the sake of it. I had gone 7 months without doing it, which I'm still really proud of but.....I just think I'm a prick right now!!!Plus I haven't eaten for three days after a spout of being sick. I'm tired of feeling ill, I'm tired of medication withdrawals screwing up my progress! GRRRR
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Do not go overboard punishing yourself for bad behavior. Instead you just had a valued learning experience. Drinking on a completely empty stomach gives you body permission to self harm and say things that embarrass you. Simply aviod drinking under those circumstances ever again, and start moving forward again. Eric
honey dont blame yourself from what others have done to u its not like u chose those things to happen to u ur just trying to cope so what if u cant do it perfectly noone can and noone should exspect it of u, not to say that i approve of ur cutting ur just gonna have to have time to get urself better and dont let anyone includeing urself rush u in that area everything unfortunatly especially in mental illnesses takes time. love u hope i could help.
also if ur BF gets mad cause ur mad at him u might wanna say that im mad be cause u made me that way....and i almost wanna ask u why u would stay w/ someone who would do that to u? j/w ur such a wonderfull person! oh ya im writeing all this to u just incase im not online for awhile lol.