I love you, I hate you

Sometimes I don't think you see my sacrifice at all. 
I left EVERYTHING for you. My WHOLE family, ALL my friends. I moved so far to make this work and you don't deserve any of it. 
Your abusive without realizing and yet you tell me you love me more than anything in the world. If you really loved me you wouldnt drag me across the floor or shake me or hurt my face by smashing your hands against it. 
I love you but the man that I fell for slips away every day. 
The only times I hear I love you anymore is when you decide you want to get some. I cant even enjoy that anymore. 
You make me feel low and I know I should leave but I cant. I have nothing else at all and even if i did leave my heart still wants you...
 
You're a real bastard.