I love you
Hello my love,
If you can give me a little help today. I woke up crying and can't stop. I am falling into a deep depression. It is so many things. I am having a hard time dealing with the selling of our home. That reality is getting closer. Tomorrow is your birthday. I have so many things that I need to do. I need to get my ass up and go to the safe deposit box. I need to find the papers for the sale of the property as well as when we bought this place. Now that I am typing this I realize that Mom's five acres was originally ours & so we have mineral rights on that place too. Now, where are those papers? I just want this probate to be over. Gee, then I can start mom's. Why do I have to do this? Why is there no one here to help me? Where are you when I need you so much? Why does this pain never really leave me?
King is doing better. He only has about six days until he can get a little exercise. I worry about him. I love him so much. He is bonding with me. He still misses you so much and I think he won't leave me because he's afraid I will disappear too.
Babe, is this ever going to get better? It will soon be eight months and I still can't seem to get it together. There is no doubt in my mind that you were the perfect man for me. There will never be another. It would not be fair to him as no one could compare. Plus I can't bear to think of being with anyone else. I have all these wonderful memories but it hurts that I have no one to share them with. For the last 30 years most of those memories were made with just you and mom. Now you both are gone & those memories just lay dormant in my heart. God, how I miss you. I love you with all my heart and soul. This will never change. I pray each day that you and Mom are there with out Lord & are happy. I am going to try to make some close friends locally. I thank God for my friends giving me support here on DS Your's forever V.
If you can give me a little help today. I woke up crying and can't stop. I am falling into a deep depression. It is so many things. I am having a hard time dealing with the selling of our home. That reality is getting closer. Tomorrow is your birthday. I have so many things that I need to do. I need to get my ass up and go to the safe deposit box. I need to find the papers for the sale of the property as well as when we bought this place. Now that I am typing this I realize that Mom's five acres was originally ours & so we have mineral rights on that place too. Now, where are those papers? I just want this probate to be over. Gee, then I can start mom's. Why do I have to do this? Why is there no one here to help me? Where are you when I need you so much? Why does this pain never really leave me?
King is doing better. He only has about six days until he can get a little exercise. I worry about him. I love him so much. He is bonding with me. He still misses you so much and I think he won't leave me because he's afraid I will disappear too.
Babe, is this ever going to get better? It will soon be eight months and I still can't seem to get it together. There is no doubt in my mind that you were the perfect man for me. There will never be another. It would not be fair to him as no one could compare. Plus I can't bear to think of being with anyone else. I have all these wonderful memories but it hurts that I have no one to share them with. For the last 30 years most of those memories were made with just you and mom. Now you both are gone & those memories just lay dormant in my heart. God, how I miss you. I love you with all my heart and soul. This will never change. I pray each day that you and Mom are there with out Lord & are happy. I am going to try to make some close friends locally. I thank God for my friends giving me support here on DS Your's forever V.
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