I love my best friend, but...
She makes me feel guilty all the time. I don't know if she means it or not, but about 85% of the time I'm pretty sure she means it. It takes everything inside of me to not get in her face and just scream "FUCK YOU!" Honestly, she has no idea what goes on in my head, what I feel and why. She makes me feel like shit constantly. Like it's my choice that I'm depressed and I'm just making excuses and wasting my time. I have a fucking disease, okay? I can't control it.
And I think she feels that way because she has a lot of shit going on in her life but she can handle it differently. Her dad has canser, her brother is in jail and his kids are living in a convent because their parents can't take care of them. She is able to brush that stuff off, come to school and be happy. I can't do that. I'm sick. There are things that you just can't say to me.
I'm basically just talking in circles now.. So, yeah. I'm fucking pissed. And I can't talk to anyone about it.
And I think she feels that way because she has a lot of shit going on in her life but she can handle it differently. Her dad has canser, her brother is in jail and his kids are living in a convent because their parents can't take care of them. She is able to brush that stuff off, come to school and be happy. I can't do that. I'm sick. There are things that you just can't say to me.
I'm basically just talking in circles now.. So, yeah. I'm fucking pissed. And I can't talk to anyone about it.
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I have the same problem with some of my friends. The best thing to do is honestly, distance yourself from them. Nothing is more important than how you feel. I used to surround myself with other people who had similar issues because I thought it \"helped me knowing others were struggling.\" It was really just bringing me down.
I know its hard because she\'s your best friend, but you might wanna really rethink if its a good relationship. If she makes you feel like shit, that\'s not a good friend... /:
I agree^^ but I love you and I know how you feel oh buddy oh pal.