I love my best friend, but...

   She makes me feel guilty all the time. I don't know if she means it or not, but about 85% of the time I'm pretty sure she means it. It takes everything inside of me to not get in her face and just scream "FUCK YOU!" Honestly, she has no idea what goes on in my head, what I feel and why. She makes me feel like shit constantly. Like it's my choice that I'm depressed and I'm just making excuses and wasting my time. I have a fucking disease, okay? I can't control it.
  And I think she feels that way because she has a lot of shit going on in her life but she can handle it differently. Her dad has canser, her brother is in jail and his kids are living in a convent because their parents can't take care of them. She is able to brush that stuff off, come to school and be happy. I can't do that. I'm sick. There are things that you just can't say to me.
  I'm basically just talking in circles now.. So, yeah. I'm fucking pissed. And I can't talk to anyone about it.