I LOST THE WILL TO LIVE!

I lost the will to live a long time ago...if you go through my journal entries here alone you will see that it is true...
Problem is that I don't have the courage to carry out my suicide plan...
And that just frustrates me more...I want to die so bad but I can't do it...
Why? Why can't I do the one thing I want most in the world?
 
DR