I Lost my sense of self.

My ex he had all the tactics like he had everything under his sleeve to break me down. I gave him complete power over me. I just relinquished all of my self-control. I feel like a complete fool looking back. He knew everything about me. He knew way more than I knew about myself. I thought he actually loved me. I guess I was thinking control=love. It tried to control him too! But, at the time I didn't know he had so much control over me. I believed I wore the pants. I thought I was so strong and that nothing could faze me. When in reality I was the complete opposite. I was confused throughout the relationship. I was weak all together but, I pretended to be so stable. I acted as if I had all the answers. It was a facade that he saw through even I couldn't up the act.