I'll keep hanging on...
Huz is doing OK. Of course, he's in a lot of pain, but that's to be expected. He has his first post-surgery appointment on Wednesday. I'm not sure how that will work with COVID. I'm not allowed in the hospital, but he isn't entirely safe to be moving on his own. He gets tired easily. He does OK with a walker, but he'd be more comfortable going from building to building (check-in here, x-rays there, appointment elsewhere) with help. I doubt they have the staff available to take him from place to place, so...? I get it. COVID. Safety. It's just a PITA, and it would be so much better if I could help, if only to take him from place to place in the wheelchair.
As for me, I'm OK. One of the students I tutored last semester (a LOT... like... half of it I didn't get paid for, but I wanted her to succeed, so I invested the time) reached out. Bless her heart, she said, "[Allora], you stuck by my side last semester when I was falling apart. There's no way I'm going to let you go through this alone." Moral support is awesome. I could tell her how stressful school is and just let it be that - nothing more. Huz would feel guilty. My boss would pull hours. My kids would feel burdened. It was nice to have a place to put it all. I also sent her my history essay to review - mostly to give her something tangible to do. It's heartwarming to have people reach out and ask what I need or how they can help, but mostly I don't have anything for them to do to help. I'm good (for now?); I've got this.
One of my friends did send a DoorDash gift card. If she were local, she'd have brought a casserole to the same ends. Of everything people have offered, that has been the most helpful. It's hard doing 65-70 hour weeks and still finding time to cook, clean, take care of huz, take care of the pets, and do all the other adulting things (taxes, property maintenance, shopping, etc.) Being able to snag a quick/easy/no-clean-up meal was a true blessing. Thank goodness the kids are grown, or I don't know what I'd do. Withdraw from school and quit my job, I guess? Especially during a pandemic when the kids would need to do school from home, too.
Bless you, parents. You all are amazing. (And teachers, medical professionals, etc.)
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You will be amazed what happens when you wheel him up in a wheel chair and tell them “I am his caretaker. I am happy to leave him here if there is someone who can help him to the toilet, push him where he needs to go”. “Who can I give instructions to to assist him to the bathroom?” Mmm this works all the time!
He is still in law enforcement?
Hi Allora! I know, long time, no hear from.
I was just browsing around in the old forum, since today is our 10th DDay anniversary. Still together, still doing well, Gabi and I. Sorry to hear about your H and all the stress you are going through. Something you may want to check on (I forget which state you live in, but here in Colorado they have this program) is a program where the state actually pays you money to be the primary caretaker of your H. It might even be a Medicare thing? Gabi is planning on checking into that program when (and I'll add, if I make it that far) that my Parkinson's gets worse to the point I can no longer take care of myself. Something you may or may not be aware that could be out there. Something to check into at least as a way to reduce the stress in your life.
Take care. See you around. We're heading out on our 39th wedding anniversary this weekend. When I look back, I realize how blessed my life has been. Even if there was a rough spot or two along the way. ;) Cheers!
Yes to the law enforcement, Cali. He is back to desk duty for now, but his knee (which caused his original fall) has never been taken care of. Red tape is fun. It’s so nice to “see” you!
It’s nice to see you, too, Cole. I wish DS gave consistent and regular notifications. I only stumbled on these replies by accident. Congrats to you and Gabi on your 39th anniversary!! I hope you had a wonderful time!