I like attention

So, a guy that had been gone for over a week messaged me and I got really excited because wow i'm lonely and feeling like shit about myself. i wanna give him everything, show him all my naughty pictures. That was a nice high when I saw his icon again... felt incredible but as usual, he just went away again and i'm left back alone. 
Also, I ate an entire costco pizza to myself yesterday and I told my therapist about the cutting spree and I have to call her now next time I want to cut like, fuck man, I always do and how do you expect to help me? Why do I come see you even? What's the point?