I let something go today

OH Roger
I let your saddle go today, its at Linda's shop where we got it 10 years ago. 
Hayley and I tried to make it work for her, but it was too narrow for Spot, and too heavy for her to put up on him.  SO I traded it for some of our extras I sold for the saddle and breast collar to match.  YOUR saddle and matching breast collar are on consignment. 
I think its for the best, and its one of the larger items I have held onto.  I feel sad but I know someone could use it.  And I wanted it to work for us here, but honestly so heavy for both of us.  I will miss seeing it, I miss seeing it on Moon I miss Moon and I miss seeing your riding with me.  We had such good tail rides, we never did get the trails GPSed for that book.  I have to believe you and Moon are riding together.  And you see Nece and Nicker, give them  a hug for me, they were so special to me.  I bet Jessie and Briar are with you also.  I wish you all were here.  I hate death. 
Now riding is on hold while this disease gets in check  - at least for two weeks  unless new cases comes up later.  So if you can make sure we are all healthy.
Miss You
 I imagine you on the top of the mt above our place where we watch the big bull elk eat in early spring.  I have not seen them yet but the flooding has created change.  I pretend you are sitting there looking down at us & I talk to you.  Wish you could answer me. 
Things are just not progressing forward very fast, I want them to go faster now for me.