I know it's strange but I don't like FRIDAY'S

Everyone around school is sooo excited on Friday's. I know in offices, stores, and places all over the city people are soooo soooo happy on Friday's. Co workers are nicer to eachother, the boss is is a good mood and everyone sharing their week end plans. Now I could see if I asked someone " Hey whatcha doin this weekend?" I open myself up to hear every thing they are doing. However what is the deal with some people who just come up to you and say " Oh i'm doing this or i'm doing that " it really gets on my nerves. I never want to seem bitter or catty and around school I am Mama T making the coffee and toasted muffins or bagels making sure we always have orange juice and fruit in the teacher fridge. I am the ultimate care taker so maybe that feel like I would automatically want to hear about how their Wonderful husbands are wisking them off to some romantic spot or how they are having a huge family barbeque or what ever ya know.
The truth is guys is that I really don't give a shit right now about how great their lives are. Does that make me a bad person or not a good friend? I  hate Friday's because during the week i'm super T I can solve any problem, no job is to big for me, I even took 28 school age kids the the water park and we had a blast. My point is during my work week I feel like I'M IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE everyone comes to me for advice and help with lesson plans or an un ruley child. Even the parents love to talk to me about what ever is going on in their lives and ask my advice to help them or their child. Then here comes Friday and I know that Sat and Sun really SUCK RIGHT NOW. I don't have the money to go out all weekend and I hate being home all by myself. On Austin's visits with his Dad every other weekend I know it's even worse. I try to invite friends over for wine or coffee but they are always busy. Some with husbands and family stuff and some out livin the single life party  to party bar to bar not for me.
I do things to try to occupy my time, read, clean, last week end I actually shampooed the carpets in the whole apt. I journal and watch a movie but good God i'm running out of things to do then what. I am sad to say that usually sleep comes next Here I am it's 10:30 am and i'm in the office writing a journal because I don't want this day to end I don't want to go home and face the lonliness. Some say I need a date I feel like a need a date about as much as I need a hole in my head. Anyone else have these issues with stressing out about facing the alone time. I just HATE IT.

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KRKing911
KRKing911

I know where your coming from. It\'s lonely for me sometimes too, but I blog and txt my friends and recently started reading again. I ordered 3 self help books so that I can find myself and learn to love and appreciate me after 30 years.. It\'s me time. Try www.meetup.com. For those weekends when your son is gone, you can hook up and do something that you have never done before, but have always wanted to do. It will be hard the first time, but I\'m sure it will get easier as you go along and make friends. I\'d come see you but I live too far far away. You should hook up with justspiffy - I think she\'s in AZ.
idoit4me
idoit4me

Boy you and I are opposites!! I work with and even share an office with the person I care about more than anything and who has admitted he likes having sex with me, but doesn\'t love me (swell huh) and can\'t wait for Fridays to come. And Mondays really suck cause I know I have 5 long days of churning emotions ahead of me. But I do know what you are saying and I am sorry for your sadness. And it isn\'t so much that I love the weekends, I just don\'t want to be so close to him. I don\'t really have a lot of friends either. And like you, the ones I do have have their own lives and are busy most of the time. I don\'t think hating Friday makes you a bad person or a bad friend, your life is different than theirs that is all. Are you a person who likes to do things alone? I actually enjoy going to the movies or shopping, even eating by myself. I just take my book and I am good to go. I live about 45 minutes from the nearest small city so the hard thing for me is to get motivated to go do something. Nights are what is hard for me. I get lonely. Anyway, I\'m rambling, I hope that your weekends get better and filled with all kinds of fun stuff. And I am glad your son is only gone every other weekend. Take care.
trisha9054
trisha9054

I know how hard the weekends can be and how lonely. My bad day was Sunday. Sundays are definitley family time around here and I would go into town and cry the 12 miles back home.

I finally made sure I had farm work to fill up the weekends. I can say that it will get better. It\'s been quite a while since I\'ve cried on a weekend.

While I know right now it\'s hard on you I can tell you it will get better.
disneymom65
disneymom65

Oh Trisha from your lips
VectorForward
VectorForward

I know what you mean. Weekends are hard for me too. I started bike riding Saturday mornings with a group of people, read a lot, and work around the house and yard. Having animals in a way is a blessing since they always require care and I actually have time to ride on the weekends. I think it might be harder on you though since at least I\'m in the same house with the same neighbors. Your routine and life have been severely disrupted especially when Austin is away (my nephew is Austin too but he is 29).I hope things look up for you soon. Hugs.
yorkieluvr
yorkieluvr

Oh yes disney - I can really relate.. and NO those feelings do not make you a bad person.. they make you human! My bad days change. For a while it was Fridays, then Sundays... but I think the bad ones are getting fewer - so there\'s hope!!
deleted_user
deleted_user

yes i totally relate to you, i used to get so excited for fridays to come when i was w/ my ex, because we would always do something fun, and now it\'s just like any other day of the week. in fact, sometimes i dread it because i think of how much fun he\'s probably having and i\'m just keeping myself busy to distract myself, but it\'s not like i TRULY feel happy or WHOLE ever! i still feel like i\'m faking it til i make it. UGH