i know.....

my friend got dumoed by this guy maybe a month ago??? maybe a little longer....she's really struggling right now and i always help her.....she always comes to me annnnnnd....i try to go to her, but i can't.....she doesn't get what i need....she doesn't help......she always tells me how i help and how i'm her rock and stuff....i'm that way because i know how it feels to have no one....i know hwo it feels to have zero validation and i know hwo it feels to have costant tears and constant hate and not knowing....i know it all.....i get kind of angry at myself.....why is it that i have so many problems??? i feel like when i'm in a crisis i need someone who knows what i'm going through.....it's not fair that i'm the only one in my life who has all this crap in their life....