I just want to F... him up!

This morning I am sad, or just don't know how I feel.  Everytime I think my husband and I are going to make it through this crisis, he flip the script on me.  This separation is hard enough without him going crazy.  One minute he act like he wants to work things out, next minute he is so cold.  He is the one who had the affair not me.  He is trying to blame everything on me.  He is the one who co-signed on a apartment for a bitch.
I keep telling myself that 25 years of marriage is a long time to be together, fight for your marriage.  I am so tried of this back and forth I am making myself sick.  I am trying not to hate this man.  I just want to F... him up!
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