I just want to disappear

Days like today, I just want to disappear. I just don't have any fight left. Some people don't just want to make you feel as bad as you - they want you to feel worse. They want you to feel lower than dirt. Than they complain that you act like it and they complain that you are being weak and trying to make them feel bad. They say that their just talking and why are you acting the way you are. They try to make you feel bad for feeling bad, like your doing something to THEM. They leave the room and you feel like you can finally breathe, but all you really want to do is cry, puke, or collapse and never stand up again. There are days that I sleep on the closet floor because I feel better in there. Today I felt so bad I spent an hour sick in the bathroom. I wonder if anyone else gets like that when they are stressed out/depressed or if its just me? It makes me feel like a child. This person is good at that, making people feel small and weak. Then telling them its there weakness not caused by him or the way hes acting. Whatever. He can apologize all he wants, and I'll tell him its OK, but I wont mean it... Its just something people are supposed to say when someone apologizes. Really I want to tell him to go screw himself and get more therapy. I want to scream and kick and throw things and - but then I would be like him and I want to rise above. Be better. So I chugged NyQuil instead. Probably not the best idea, but I felt better.