I just want to cry

Finally I arrived home...yippy...I guess finding out that we are not pregnant must of messed up my brain temporarily, because when I send the email with the marks off I did not put the name of the school in the subject line...the person on the other end did recieve it and worked it out, however did not know where to send it. Though I did leave her a note, stating the school name in the message...Apparently they do not open the message, just retrieve the attachments.After I got home, my neighbour was out with their new puppy..he was so excited to see me he peed on my foot. I guess I have that affect on males.I am still sad but I understand why we did not get pregnant or atleast I am trying to justify it. I was so stressed the last two weeks, I am over wieght and the IUI did not feel right....I kind of felt the stuff sort of  coming out when I stood up after the proceedure.I agree with browngirl about taking a break and letting me focus on me. Tomorrow while I wait for parents to call the school, I might do a little running shoe shopping and maybe go to Jones of New York and La Senza. I really do not need anything but a little shopping thearpy does help. Monday I will start my exerices routine of waking up at 9am having breakfast then at 10 walk to Uncle Bob's place (45min) with my book and water. Sit by the pool at his house and read in my hammock. Around noon, I will head back (the heat will be hotter so I will work and sweat a bit more) and head home for a late lunch and watch soap operas. At 2pm I hope to go see my grandmothers and then head home to make a low fat but tastey supper for DH and spend the evening getting caught up on ROME or another series.I was looking into trying to go to Ireland but DH reminded me about starting our adoption stuff, so I guess that is where that money is going.When he is out tomorrow I will finally allow myself to have a good cry. I need to let it out so the disappointment can go away.Thank-you to all you lovely ladies for your support. It has pulled me out of a real funk.