I just miss him ...

I lost my husband 11/15/15 and it still feels like yesterday. I have a great support sysytem that helps me, but I stuggle daily. Some days are easier than others, but there are a number of days where I just want to go back in time.  I was with Anthony for 11 years and married for 9 beautiful years.  He was the one person that got me and understood every aspect of me. He was my best friend, my better half, my soul mate, my everything and my heart.  When his heart stopped it felt like someone had riped out my heart.  We did not know he was sick and when he went to a doctors appointment about his back since he was hurt at work we discovered that he was not getting enough oxygen.  Then as he was in the hospital they discovered that he had only 5% function of his kidneys and it was down hill from there. He was intabated and was in the ICU for 19 days until he passed away.  He was only 33 years old.

There are times where something happens and I wish that he was here to share the news, whether it be good or bad.  He was my rock. I am having a bad day today and wish that he was here to give me a big bear hug and tell me that it is going to be alright. I know that my friends and family are supporting me, but it would be nice to talk to someone that understands what I am experiencing. I hope that I can meet some people that we can support each other.