I just dont know

Im so frustrated with this waiting. I took a test this morning and it was negative, but still no period. It is supposed to come today. I dont really feel like its going to come but I dont really know. I just hate waiting. Why cant I be normal and it show up as soon as I miss my period. I called the doctor today and he said if I start my period I need to come in Monday and have an ultrasound where he can check everything and make sure its ok then he'll start me on clomid again. This time it will be half a dose since the 50mg dose worked too good. I just wish either way something would happen either I start my period or I get a positive. I HATE WAITING. Im going crazy. I called the local doctors office and they said they could do a blood test but it wouldnt be back till Monday and I just dont want to do that and then I get my period later today or tomorrow. So Im just gonna wait till Sunday and retake the pee test again. Well sorry for ranting. HUGS MONICA