I just don`t know any more

I have been on DS for a while now and it can be frustrating  some times,when you try starting discussions and it takes forever for anything to happen. I know that there are more people out there that feel the same way. I just don`t think that I am cut out to start every discussion and that is ok with me. I just think that there are some things that do need attention and some of the time things need to be talked about.That may be just the way I have been taught but that is what I think. It is also what I  do at home with my wife and I know that some times I drive her nutts when I do it. I can`t help it that is just the way I am. If I am hurting I talk about it,if I feel good then I don`t talk about it. But if I really feel bad then I don`t say a word,maybe that is what is wrong,everone feels so bad that they don`t talk about it.But agian that dosen`t make it go away,it is still there when you feel better or not as bad.I know that I have multipule problems and I have been told that I am very lucky to be alive because of some of the things that have happened to me over the years.But I don`t just clam up and stop talking or feeling or shareing or trying to help others.I just don`t get it about why some people talk and others don`t.Maybe it is because they don`t think they don`t matter(THEY DO MATTER TO ME). I have always cared for people and never try to hurt anyone.I used to play football but I don`t think that I could make it playing now days because now it is trying to anialate your opponant instead of just trying to out score them.I always helped someone up after I tackled them and that to me was being a good sportsman but also caring that I didn`t hurt them. You may be asking why that analagy but that is the only thing that comes to mind when I think about what I do and the way I treat people. I try my best to help them up or to understand what is going on with them or me.I don`t know if I am making any sence or not.The reasons that I am writting this is so that I can sort things out and try and make sence of them and in some way understand what is going on with some of the people that have joined some of the groups that I am in but then they won`t talk about anything that is bothering them.It is frustrating for me when I see someone hurting and I just can`t seem to get through to them that it is not just them that is hurting and some times it helps to talk it out.Maybe something they are doing or not doing is the probnlem but they can`t see it because they never really thought about it or talked to someone else about it,so they don`t know that they are doing some thing wrong.