I just don\'t know

    I don't know what to do anymore. It seems the only thing I do now is BP and when I have a good day from BPing, I am depressed and I don't have energy and I just feel awful. I know that I am turning to food for comfort, food is my friend right now. I have pushed everyone else away.     So last night I BPed right in front of my husband! He didn't even notice until it was too late. Of course Mia just loved it. The sneakiness and getting away with it. I tihnk I wanted him to notice so I made it kind of obvious and he finally noticed a little to late.     I talked to him about how I was feeling. His only words of advice to me are get better. I cried last night and told him, I cannot do it alone. How can I get better if I don't have the tools? We are still working with getting insurance and hopefully I get it in a couple of weeks. My husband is suppsoed to get it through his job and I don't think hes working at it.    About him, I just can't stand him anymore. I see a divorce in the future and Iam OK with it. We have nothing in common and all he likes to do is play video games. We have absolutly nothing in common at all. It saddens me because I really love him, but I know we will never be happy together because we have such different views on every aspect of life.    Well I don't know what else to put. I feel empty, lonely, and unhappy.