I just can't shake it !!! :'(
My depression just keeps coming back and kicking the crap out of me. I have some support but it just isn't helping. I'm scared I will have to get ECT. My options are running out. I feel I'd rather be dead than letting them pass electric shocks through my brain. I've seen the side effects. It can be miserable. Just want to curl up and fade away. :'(
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Hugs, hugs, hugs Newdrake! Please don\'t fade away. I know how you feel, and don\'t have any solutions for you.
Praying for you if that\'s okay and sending gentle supporting hugs
Thanks Sing you\'re a true angel.
honey.......... I know you are feeling like total shit right now. but you fight dammit! you ARE STRONG.. you don\'t feel it.. I get that..but you\'ve been here before...... I\'ve got you...... you will get through this.. you will. You increased your meds.. give it some time ... I love you..and I won\'t let this fucking depression beat you!
Hi if anti depressants don\'t work for you, I recommend asking your doctor about Risperdone!
Sweetheart,
PLEASE Don\'t Give Up. I Know How Hard It Is To Keeping Fighting Sometimes........But You Have To :) You Are So Loved And So Needed.......You Are One Of The Good Guys :) And The World Needs MORE Good Guys....Not Less.
Sending You Strength And Hope And Love Lots Of Love
I feel your pain, and that damn depression has been kicking the hell out of me since my wife left going on a year. I\'ve been hiding in my apartment to the point that I haven\'t been able to work. My Bipolar is the icing on the cake. Sometimes at night I pray for a way out, nothing. One thing I keep saying to myself is \"Tough times don\'t last, Strong people always do\" I know our situation is rough, I also know that we are here for a purpose, what I don\'t know as of yet, but tomorrow always welcomes me even if its a dark cloudy day.
Thanks everyone you have helped me enormously. I keep having these down times but they don\'t last long. They just hurt really really bad and take a lot outta of me. I am getting better though. I am still fighting. I will not give up.
SO, being a Ruger fan like I am, I have to ask... is the 308 a Winchester reference? Just curious. And don\'t let depression beat you, it\'s not all that smart, it\'s just persistant as hell. ;-) Sometimes when I just can\'t fight the fog anymore, I simple ride along with it till I catch my breath, then we go at it again. I\'ll never secumb to it, and you won\'t either. How do I know this? Well for one thing, LMT won\'t let you LMAO. And 2, you know where to get support. That\'s a 1-2 punch against the Big D. Take care sir, and know we\'re here for you. RF
Oh R you are one of the strongest people I know, please find the will to fight. Hell I\'m selfish and I need for you to be okay. It may not be today, or tomorrow but you will beat this I know you. Would you give up on that 20lb fish once it got a hold? Like hell you would so please don\'t give up on you either.
I love you my friend x
that\'s right honey..... Ruger knows me well and he\'s very very afraid of me.. I am very bossy as you know. D is right too...... no FISH is big enough to pull you in....... love you xo
I love you honey and I\'m not afraid of you. He\'ll even death doesn\'t scare me. The only fear I have is that my loved ones would be cast into depression by some selfish self destructive act on my part. And Roger Fan the 308 is a personal think. I once owned a Roger carbine 44 Magnum rifle. I loved it. But my dad loved it too. So I traded him for a canoe . I also owned a Mark IV .22 pistol. It was a great sidearm in case I needed to dispatch a snake or some other threat while hunting in my favorite hunting grounds in the Green Swamp. So Roger Fan I understand what you like. Those are fine weapons that they produce. I wish Depression could be made into something alive that would be my quarry. I would hunt it down and devour the vile creature. Yes my soul is stronger each time I survive another battle. Even after death I offer my soul to God to be used as a weapon against all Hell bound things. But while living I wish to annihilate Depression. Deity you\'ve got me honey I am not giving up. If you need me I am still here. The only thing stronger than my will to live and be victorious is my love for you my friends.
Sorry for the typos. My silly phone has autospell. But I am sure you all are smart enough to understand what I was saying / writing.