I hope I can reach some one with my journal.....
Some days like today always send me in a full flare-up or a complete breakdown.
I'm in so much pain but I can not get help with it. It's like the doctors just gave up on me, or they just put it on some specialist or another. I feel like my tendons are going to snap at any minute, and even standing up to go to the next room is HORRIBLE!!! I fell like a 90 yr old and I'm only 40!!
AND.... to top it off, I'm bi-polar with sever depression.
I'm so lost with no one to listen, I have a few friends and hubby that said they are willing to help and support me but so far I haven't seen much of it. or maybe I was just not seeing it.
I know they are tired of hearing me complain about how much pain I'm in so I just keep it to myself . I'm trying to be there for a friend that is having a MAJOR life change, I just can't focus on that right now.
I know I should focus on the positive but right now in this much pain I can't even when I want to.
I need suggestions and advice please.
I'm in so much pain but I can not get help with it. It's like the doctors just gave up on me, or they just put it on some specialist or another. I feel like my tendons are going to snap at any minute, and even standing up to go to the next room is HORRIBLE!!! I fell like a 90 yr old and I'm only 40!!
AND.... to top it off, I'm bi-polar with sever depression.
I'm so lost with no one to listen, I have a few friends and hubby that said they are willing to help and support me but so far I haven't seen much of it. or maybe I was just not seeing it.
I know they are tired of hearing me complain about how much pain I'm in so I just keep it to myself . I'm trying to be there for a friend that is having a MAJOR life change, I just can't focus on that right now.
I know I should focus on the positive but right now in this much pain I can't even when I want to.
I need suggestions and advice please.
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