i hit my dad back

last night my dad was drinking like always and hes talkin mad shit to me. sayin come suck my dick boy i no your a fagot get your ass over here and suck your dadys dick and it was pising me off but i didnt say shit and i hate when he gets all drunk like that and it was pisin him off i was ignoring him so he grabed my neck and i shoved him. that started the pussy wants to fight cuz hes a big man shit talkin and im standin there like a worthless fuck just waitin for him to swing on me so he starts pushin me and im thinkin hurry up and hit me but he kept sayin come on fag hit me so i did. i didnt think about it just happend. made his lip bleed and he laughed and walked away. fuck like all night i was waitin for round 2 but it never came. idk wtf to think about that. its the first time i ever hit back and i was thinkin he was gona lose it. what a mind fuck im in today. gosd dam it im fuckied today. got my report card yesterday and its better than was thinking it was gona be and what a trip my science teacher wrote that I'm a pleasure to have in class? wtf? i need to get the fuck outa here while hes gone and come home after hes pased out. i almost forgot i got a letter from mom yesterday. i havnt read it. not sure i want to