I HEAR YOU!!
LOL... I can hear Barbara yelling down to me,"PUT YOUR BIG GIRL PANTIES ON!! GO TO THE RETREAT!!!
I am in the beginning of my 6th year since Ryan has gone to heaven...This will be my 2nd retreat...Last year my daughter Erica went with me, we drove 23 hours to Gatlinburg TN., Then after the retreat we kept on driving to Nashville. Visiting a girl friend of mind Debbie. We grew up together as neighbors since we were 4 years of age. In New Hampshire, on the NorthEast Coast, burrr, it is chilly today. It was unbelievablly HOT through those devastating Tornados, which has something to do with my sadness along with 100 other things, but REALLY, I had myself so up tight, GOING 100 miles an hour in my HEAD, with my feet nailed to the floor.... for 3 weeks now!!, lol....FEAR OF FEAR ITSELF! What a horrible place to be..
I went to bed early last night, woke up around 2:00am, I laid there awake all night long, thinking. This morning, first thing, turned on this awesome site, and Wella, there were words of encouragement on my messages from you awesome moms. You don't know how good that felt..You, my sweet friends brought tears of prayer to my eyes, in hopes to get this gut wrenching fear out of me, it is starting to work already...huh! Isn't that what Love is about? Helping OTHERS!!! "OK, Kelly FOCUS", Take a deep breath and be the person I'm suppose to be, and do what my purpose is in life. I will use the tools , laid down at my feet.. Move, one foot in front of the other...ok, done talking to myself again, I'll go crazy if I don't. haha.. spreading LOVE Everywhere.. Here I come with my Big Girl Panties on..lol,hahaha..
Ryan, I am so ready to be with you again at this awesome retreat, with all my friends and their children. I can't wait for the visits and signs you gave me, as you did last year. I miss you and love you soooooooooooo much my precious son, forever 18... MOM
I need to call the hotel about getting a limo, to pick me up at the airport, its like pulling teeth to pick up the phone. ya, thats me!! I'm putting on my big girl panties,hahaha.....Love You my sweet friends, Kelly
I am in the beginning of my 6th year since Ryan has gone to heaven...This will be my 2nd retreat...Last year my daughter Erica went with me, we drove 23 hours to Gatlinburg TN., Then after the retreat we kept on driving to Nashville. Visiting a girl friend of mind Debbie. We grew up together as neighbors since we were 4 years of age. In New Hampshire, on the NorthEast Coast, burrr, it is chilly today. It was unbelievablly HOT through those devastating Tornados, which has something to do with my sadness along with 100 other things, but REALLY, I had myself so up tight, GOING 100 miles an hour in my HEAD, with my feet nailed to the floor.... for 3 weeks now!!, lol....FEAR OF FEAR ITSELF! What a horrible place to be..
I went to bed early last night, woke up around 2:00am, I laid there awake all night long, thinking. This morning, first thing, turned on this awesome site, and Wella, there were words of encouragement on my messages from you awesome moms. You don't know how good that felt..You, my sweet friends brought tears of prayer to my eyes, in hopes to get this gut wrenching fear out of me, it is starting to work already...huh! Isn't that what Love is about? Helping OTHERS!!! "OK, Kelly FOCUS", Take a deep breath and be the person I'm suppose to be, and do what my purpose is in life. I will use the tools , laid down at my feet.. Move, one foot in front of the other...ok, done talking to myself again, I'll go crazy if I don't. haha.. spreading LOVE Everywhere.. Here I come with my Big Girl Panties on..lol,hahaha..
Ryan, I am so ready to be with you again at this awesome retreat, with all my friends and their children. I can't wait for the visits and signs you gave me, as you did last year. I miss you and love you soooooooooooo much my precious son, forever 18... MOM
I need to call the hotel about getting a limo, to pick me up at the airport, its like pulling teeth to pick up the phone. ya, thats me!! I'm putting on my big girl panties,hahaha.....Love You my sweet friends, Kelly
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Oh Kelly, I love you so much Girl!!! : ) I can\'t wait to see you again! I\'ll put on my Big Girl Panties too! I get \"stuck\" too so many times. Like you said, goiing 100 miles an hour in my head with my feet nailed to the floor. So true! Have a safe trip to Asheville. Love and big hugs, Diane
I hope you have a very great time at the retreat! I\'m not able to come this year but I will be there with you in spirit. Love, Kelly
Way to go Kelly!!!!!! Love the limo idea....Hang in there it only gets better once your in the arms of our dear friends.....
Love and tight hugs!!!!!!!!!
Sleepless nights seem to be a norm for me too..and head spinnings,,another norm... only a few more days..get those big girl panties out and put them on..I am,,
Hi Kelly, what a perfect description. \"Going 100 miles an hour in my head, with my feet nailed to the ground.\" Sounds so much like me at times. But we are doing the best we can and that\'s what we can hold onto. See you soon. Love to you and Ryan, Linda
Oh Kelly, I\'m so glad you\'re coming!!! That FEAR and ANXIETY...I sooooo understand. It\'s crazy the way it just takes over, no matter how hard we try...we seem to be on the same page with that! I\'m gonna put on my big girl panties and get going too...you and I both know it will be so worth it! Sending you extra peace for the coming days...and lots of love, Valerie
Kelly, I\'m so glad you wrote this. I too have these feelings of anxiety. I had such a good time last year and felt so comfortable around all the moms....but there just is that lingering fear I keep having of going anywhere! But I am looking forward to it and to seeing you again! Love, Kim
Yes...here we go...and it is a shuttle...from the resort...AnneP sent out information about getting it reserved. See you soon!!
Go have fun, sorry I can\'t join you all. It sounds like nsuch fun, Enjoy, Susan
Kelly I cannot wait to spend time with you again, my friend. I am so thankful for you all. See you in less than a week now LOL. Love
Can\'t wait to see you again!!!! Love to you and safe trip...Lynn
Years ago when valium first came out it was a pretty powder blue color. When we had a bad day ( in a medical office there is always someone having a bad day) we began to say \" take a blue pill\" now more expressions are out like chill pill etc so if you have anxiety putting your big girl panities on start with a blue pill it will make the chore easier LOL
love Penny
You won\'t save any money with the limo, lady, I\'ll send you the bus route info if you want! Can\'t wait to see you! Colleen
Yes we all have to put on our big girl panties. This is will my 3rd retreat. Can\'t wait to see you and everyone again. Love, Rhonda