I HEAR YOU!!
LOL... I can hear Barbara yelling down to me,"PUT YOUR BIG GIRL PANTIES ON!! GO TO THE RETREAT!!!
I am in the beginning of my 6th year since Ryan has gone to heaven...This will be my 2nd retreat...Last year my daughter Erica went with me, we drove 23 hours to Gatlinburg TN., Then after the retreat we kept on driving to Nashville. Visiting a girl friend of mind Debbie. We grew up together as neighbors since we were 4 years of age. In New Hampshire, on the NorthEast Coast, burrr, it is chilly today. It was unbelievablly HOT through those devastating Tornados, which has something to do with my sadness along with 100 other things, but REALLY, I had myself so up tight, GOING 100 miles an hour in my HEAD, with my feet nailed to the floor.... for 3 weeks now!!, lol....FEAR OF FEAR ITSELF! What a horrible place to be..
I went to bed early last night, woke up around 2:00am, I laid there awake all night long, thinking. This morning, first thing, turned on this awesome site, and Wella, there were words of encouragement on my messages from you awesome moms. You don't know how good that felt..You, my sweet friends brought tears of prayer to my eyes, in hopes to get this gut wrenching fear out of me, it is starting to work already...huh! Isn't that what Love is about? Helping OTHERS!!! "OK, Kelly FOCUS", Take a deep breath and be the person I'm suppose to be, and do what my purpose is in life. I will use the tools , laid down at my feet.. Move, one foot in front of the other...ok, done talking to myself again, I'll go crazy if I don't. haha.. spreading LOVE Everywhere.. Here I come with my Big Girl Panties on..lol,hahaha..
Ryan, I am so ready to be with you again at this awesome retreat, with all my friends and their children. I can't wait for the visits and signs you gave me, as you did last year. I miss you and love you soooooooooooo much my precious son, forever 18... MOM
I need to call the hotel about getting a limo, to pick me up at the airport, its like pulling teeth to pick up the phone. ya, thats me!! I'm putting on my big girl panties,hahaha.....Love You my sweet friends, Kelly
I am in the beginning of my 6th year since Ryan has gone to heaven...This will be my 2nd retreat...Last year my daughter Erica went with me, we drove 23 hours to Gatlinburg TN., Then after the retreat we kept on driving to Nashville. Visiting a girl friend of mind Debbie. We grew up together as neighbors since we were 4 years of age. In New Hampshire, on the NorthEast Coast, burrr, it is chilly today. It was unbelievablly HOT through those devastating Tornados, which has something to do with my sadness along with 100 other things, but REALLY, I had myself so up tight, GOING 100 miles an hour in my HEAD, with my feet nailed to the floor.... for 3 weeks now!!, lol....FEAR OF FEAR ITSELF! What a horrible place to be..
I went to bed early last night, woke up around 2:00am, I laid there awake all night long, thinking. This morning, first thing, turned on this awesome site, and Wella, there were words of encouragement on my messages from you awesome moms. You don't know how good that felt..You, my sweet friends brought tears of prayer to my eyes, in hopes to get this gut wrenching fear out of me, it is starting to work already...huh! Isn't that what Love is about? Helping OTHERS!!! "OK, Kelly FOCUS", Take a deep breath and be the person I'm suppose to be, and do what my purpose is in life. I will use the tools , laid down at my feet.. Move, one foot in front of the other...ok, done talking to myself again, I'll go crazy if I don't. haha.. spreading LOVE Everywhere.. Here I come with my Big Girl Panties on..lol,hahaha..
Ryan, I am so ready to be with you again at this awesome retreat, with all my friends and their children. I can't wait for the visits and signs you gave me, as you did last year. I miss you and love you soooooooooooo much my precious son, forever 18... MOM
I need to call the hotel about getting a limo, to pick me up at the airport, its like pulling teeth to pick up the phone. ya, thats me!! I'm putting on my big girl panties,hahaha.....Love You my sweet friends, Kelly
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