I have to stand to live

I close my eyes tightand retreat within my mindno sight it would seem to be safea never ending game of tagI don't want to playthis isn't the playground nowpleading for something to make senseso I may breathe with easeI breathed my last breath 20 breaths agopain circulating throught my limbsI dare not attempt to standjust sitting here closing my eyesthe sun and cicadas call me outsidefeet, why do you refuse to leave this room?it would seem to be safe in herea filthy smell lingers the floorcrawls up the wallsand sleeps next to the ceilingthis morning it woke before meand pinned me down in my bedI could only crythis great weight pushing me downit would seem I was safe in this roomI don't want to play tag with the sunbut I have to stand and live soon