I have nothing to lose...

So here we are yet another day... and nothing has changed. I've applied for job after job and nothing... I'm posting ads for clients and more nothing... I've looked for houses and nope nothing there either. I am alone on top of everything. My family is incomplete... I am incomplete I have nothing left... Just here wasting more and more space seems like. I've neva been one for materialistic things Ive only wanted to be loved wanted needed completed. I'm so tired... I was in the DBT program finally, and I lost that too... There goes that much needed support as well as a counselor I was finally able to connect with. I'm still trying to use the techniques I learned but none of it is working... and I cut again. My life is like a book so much goes unbelievably wrong. Ugh the voices are so loud right now. There's no peace anywhere. No comfort. Nothing saying or any signs anywhere showing that things will be ok. The thing I fear worse than death is sooo heavy rite now and I cant release. I'm trying everything and nothing is changing aside from things getting worse. Idk what to do... I've lost everything... I have nothing to lose.