i have no money

i hate not having any money. i have a show in orlando and dont know if i can even get there. i want to go... but i should probablkly just save my money and do somthign els with it :(man im really sad and i donty know why the pills were working so good and now i feel bad today :( and i dont knwo why.i just dont have any money and even if i did it wouldnt be enough. plus i just felt really bad after coming from walmart. and when ever i leave my house for too long i dont feel right. i tried to go somehwere today but the bus never came.but i walked my dog this morning its really hard getting up that early....hey what ever i just dont feel good :(*cry*i just feel bad and i cant control it i should feel good bc i got a new fan. in fact i may have a few new fans and ive really been working on my career.i did an open mic two nights in a row. and i got a new fans email and i added her to my myspace page she is cute :)i should be and i am. i have some new fans. but i only feel good when im talking to them or getting somthign from them... and while my dog is with me and when daffy is out side.so theres three things that make me happy my dog my duck and my fans loli want a new house with just me my dog and my duckl i think about that all the time.anywayz im happy my career is moving i dont know why im so deprezssed.man ive been writing a really depressing song... i like it thoughi will try to finish it by thursday.i wont trip if i dont finish it.since finding a lawyer seems really hard lets lower the stakes for once lol