I have finally died emotionally

I have finally cut myself off from all feelings except for anger. And im ok with that. I have completely died emotionally as a person. I hate myself I hate everyone around me. I feel completely lost and alone. I dont want nothing anymore I dont want to eat I dont want to pee I dont want to do nothing. I only love my gf shes the only thing keeping me going. I feel like I should commit myself in to a crazy hospital. I cant do it anymore Im at my breaking point. My stress level is off the charts it stays that way. I freaking layed in the bathroom floor and poured powder on me and then pour a whole bottle of perfume on me. Im off the deep end drowing. I can no longer handle life. I have a coping disorder and probaly should of stayed in cousling I can no longer cope with anything.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Jessica, hang in there! I\'m sorry that things just suck for you so much right now. I think that it is brave of you to realize when you need more help and I know that you can be okay again. Reach out for what you need and you will be able to feel other things again. Just do what you can to keep yourself going...I am rooting for you!
smallgirl3
smallgirl3

adding on to that...please, please don\'t do that!!! cutting and drinking and stuff seems like a good idea at the time but it DOES NOT HELP AT ALL in the long run. exactly, everyone is rooting for you.
deleted_user
deleted_user

I have had days like this. Then when I am feeling good, I wonder how/why I was that upset. I know medication would maybe help but still afraid to take anything. HUGS