I have finally died emotionally

I have finally cut myself off from all feelings except for anger. And im ok with that. I have completely died emotionally as a person. I hate myself I hate everyone around me. I feel completely lost and alone. I dont want nothing anymore I dont want to eat I dont want to pee I dont want to do nothing. I only love my gf shes the only thing keeping me going. I feel like I should commit myself in to a crazy hospital. I cant do it anymore Im at my breaking point. My stress level is off the charts it stays that way. I freaking layed in the bathroom floor and poured powder on me and then pour a whole bottle of perfume on me. Im off the deep end drowing. I can no longer handle life. I have a coping disorder and probaly should of stayed in cousling I can no longer cope with anything.