I have come out of mourning

 I am writing this new entry to let everyone know that I am out of mourning.It has been a veryrough 4 years,,but thourght the wonderful people here I have made it.My life has just began and i am going to share it with all of the people here.Number one...Kramer is fine and the vet told me that she is very spoiled and I shouldnt worry about her.Number two--on Augst 5th,i start  cashier and customer service training at Goodwill.It is the summer training session and after that I intend to get a part time job because that is all I can do as of the moment.The smile shows jut how happy I am.It is wonderful to feel alive again.And I am eating better and I am sleeping so much better.Grief can take a toll on you and for 4 years...I was in denial.I will admit this...Brad used to beat me and I stayed because of financial reasons.It wont be that way as of now.I realize now that Brad never loved me and it hurts.He was my first love.I fell head strong at 48 and he was younger then me and it was really strong.I am asking all young girls to give yourself space.Never give up a job for any man.Never give up your friends and never give up your animals.If he doenst like cats...watch out! He is like a Ted Bundy in disgusise.I am singing karoke and I go twice a year and it is wonderful to learn and sing again.it is so wonderful to feel alive again and I am learning that love does not hurt.Love heals and I am on the verge of being healed by all of the wonderful people that I know and i thank all of you.