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I hate IT

I hate the fact that my Kenny is gone..as I know you all do too...for your child...

Some days it just seems almost too much to bear....

I hate it hate it hate it...
The life we did not choose..the life we did not want....I hate my life with my Kenny gone..
I can't seem to be or find a positive today...The Pain never ends....
Why were we given this road in this life...I don't know just know....I hate it..I will hate it tomorrow and until the day we will be together again...
I just hate that I can not change it...but would if I could...
Sorry all it's just a hard couple of weeks...
Love to you all.
Sandi

Replies

deleted_user 09/02/2011
HUGS, Sandi. I am sure we all feel the same way. Just waiting for the day we can see our children again.

KandL 09/02/2011
I understand Sandi. I often have the exact feelings. Love and peace, Linda

deleted_user 09/02/2011
My dear Sandi, no apologies are needed here. Just know we all understand and love and support you.
Love and gentle hugs to you, Pat

JennsMom66 09/02/2011
I understand how you are feeling Sandi, I\'ve been there too.
Hugs, MaryLou

deleted_user 09/02/2011
Hugs to you Sandi, some days are just to much to handle and I can\'t find a good day that I don\'t miss Ryan. Love, Marcia

Erikalan 09/02/2011
I hate it too! Some mornings it\'s just too much to start the day thinking oh no, another day without Erik in my world, and his family\'s daily life.
And then some days are better, which I am wishing for you.
love and hugs, Margery Ann

SusanLarson 09/02/2011
I hate it ti Sandi! Lots of warm Hugs to you, Susan

RememberKala 09/02/2011
Yep! Hate it too....

KimRW 09/03/2011
Sandi, I hate it too. I wish more than anything I could change this. It\'s not fair and it does hurt so much. Some days just seem to hurt even more.....I do understand! Wishing you a better tomorrow with peaceful moments and I continue to pray for comfort for us all. Sending you a hug....Love, Kim

PLA58 09/03/2011
Sandi, I hate it also. I hate the way I feel and the way I don\'t have any energy or ( the list is endless) Throw a few things get it out in the open. I pray that it gives you the fix you need ( even if it is only temporary).

Hugs Penny

Robin4 09/03/2011
I too hate that my child is gone butI love that he lived however short the time. Sending you love and hug and prayers that the days become more gentle. Vent anytime friend. You are loved. Robin

JACL 09/03/2011
Sending you a big understanding hug! It\'s perfectly okay to feel this way. We\'ve been dealt a terrible hand with the loss of our children. We need to feel and process our emotions and go through this terrible grief. Suppressing our feelings will only make things harder. Much love to you friend. Diane

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