I hate what I see

The past week my self esteem has dropped even more which I didn't think could happen. I'll feel ok for a little bit then see my reflection and go to a horrible mood in seconds! I can't stand it my hair has been coming out like crazy the past month so I have very thin spots irrigation in the front and seeing it an not being able to cover it just cause this over whelming flood of depression and anxiety all at once I don't want anyone at all to look at me for the rest of the day and it killing me. I just want to at lest be ok with what I see in the mirror.