I hate my life
hey babe, I spent the day with Benita but wish it was with u. Today is 9 weeks and I feel like I am lossing u more and more as the weeks go by.I know ppl try to help me feel better and I do for awhile but than all I do is think about u. U have always been there when ever I needed u and now that is gone. I really need u to give me a hug and a kiss but i know that cant happen now.I felt bad I just told Josh he wasnt suppose to sit in ur chair , I shouldnt of said that.goodness honey I miss u so much. U r the best thing that has happen to me . I guess this week I will call the lawyer to get the stuff started . I really dont want any thing to change bc it feels like that u r not part of me anymore and u will always be part of me for the rest of my life. Our kids r doing so good , they will be back in school before u know it. Well honey I will write u more later . Love u always and forever, ur wife
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You know, my friend, it took us here about 8 months before ANYONE sat in Gregs chair as I think of it. Don\'t beat yourself up. We have a pit group in the family room and the recliner was always Greg\'s. when the boys would come to visit, my kids were here, or I was in that room I\'d find myself looking at the chair and just wishing he was in it. I could picture him in it. Be GENTLE with you now. there is SO much going on in yor head right now, and all of it/ NORMAL. PAINFUL and NORMAL.
I also went through the probate process and it SUCKS. But KNOW thyis. You will NEVER lose the love the two of you shared, and no matter what happens...you will ALWAYShave that. ALWAYS.
BIG HUGS of understanding and of love Diane
Jaime:
I know all the legal stuff will be hard for you. I started almost right awy and am still not through. You will be able to do it. What is hard is that feeling that every change you make is taking another part of Chris\' life away. But, we don\'t have a choice and you especilly have to make sure everything is right wo you and the kids can survive.
Love you, Julie
It\'s been 6 and a half mos. for me and I\'m still going through legal matters, I know it\'s very stressful on top of missing our loves, some days I don\'t want to get out of bed. I\'ve wondered many times how will I ever survive this, but just taking one day as it comes has helped, and listening to all the great advice and comforting words from friends on DS. I\'m still trying to live in this world without my soulmate, it\'s a very painful adjustment that I know will take a long time. Visit us often and we will try our best to support one another.
Hugs,
Christine