I hate my family.

well, I don't have much of one, really.  my pathetic father, who never does anything he says he's going to, can't seem to actually talk w/o yelling (but of course, he can sit on the phone all day, talking to other ppl), acts like he cares, but is sick of me living here and not being able to pay rent, but won't actually help me w/anything so I can get somewhere.

my crappy, selfish, useless "mother", who may as well be dead at this point, since she's so self absorbed that all she cares about is getting ANOTHER house, and since we're all so sick of it, and her trying to use everyone like pawns to get what she wants, that since she has no use for anyone, why bother talking to them?  unless it's to try to get us to go along w/her crap, again.  and she's so delusional and self-absorbed that she probably doesn't even realize it, we should just all keep going along w/her charades, it's always the house or the neighbors, never her. right.

and if it wasn't bad enough having such a crappy, selfish, useless mother...having one that gets her house and all her bills paid for, by my grandparents, while I'm perpetually broke, living in a small duplex w/my pathetic dad, and can never get anywhere, is even better!!  but of course, no one cares.

and, you would think the ONE person that knows what it's like having such a crappy mother and pathetic father, would be able to relate and sympathize...but nope.  not like he cares either.  I don't bother talking to him, since all he says is "move out", "get a job", or "go be homeless then, if it's that bad" which is nice, since he calls him ALL DAY to talk about his crap, and what his crappy wife did now.  so I'm like "ohh, why don't you leave, if it's that bad then???"  he can tell me to leave, but then he can call him all day to bitch about his crap.  yep, isn't that nice.  but of course, when we have basically no mother, and he's pretty much the only person left to talk to...but that just makes me even more depressed, and pissed off that I have such a crappy mother, since if she was halfway decent, maybe my brother would have some respect, but instead I'm just surrounded by assholes, who have no understanding or sympathy for what it's like to be a female, and the crap we have to deal with.  that's why it just pisses me off even more when he's like "well just go be homeless then!!"  like seriously, who would think it's a good idea for a single girl to be homeless??  who would want their sister to be homeless???  I never did anything to him, just pissed off that I have to live w/my pathetic father, while my crappy mother gets all her bills + house paid for, yet no one cares or wants to help me, and just thinks and acts like I'm lazy and don't deserve anything.  which of course, is even more depressing since my parents don't work either, so how come they're not lazy??  it's really nice being called lazy all the time, by ppl that don't work either, and haven't in years, and live off their parents, or as much welfare as they can get.  and yet, I'M the lazy one, that just wants to live off them and do nothing..right.  a bit ironic, no?