I hate monday\'s

Monday is the day dad went through so much and if i keep looking at the clock i could tell you what happened so i try not to look at the time.It's 4 weeks early hours of tomorrow.I miss him so much just knowing he was there but now he gone.Today i lost it with marc my partner bless him but know one understands what it's like until they loose a parent some of the commen't people say i know they don't mean it because they don't what to say i'd rather they say nothing at all, mind you suppose that would be wrong to.I just feel so lost  i've tried to keep it together but i think i'm beginning to crack perhaps if i do then i might just start to except it.LOVE YOU DAD XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXx