i hate how depressed i\'ve become

I am so completely drained. It seems like every time i take a step ahead i take ten steps back. I was feeling so good, and then i slowly started feeling like crap again. This depressed feeling is overwhelming. i am soooo RESTLESS, IRRITABLE AND DISCONTENT. I know it's partly because i haven't been to a meeting but sometimes i wonder if this is even worth it. I've tried so damn hard and look what can still happen!