I hate feeling empty and alone
It is not easy for me to get time to get on the computer and log an entry into this journal, even though I knoe it help my sanity. I get a quick chance to read someones request for advice or discussion but never enough time to put in my two cents. This weekend has left me drained again. I am getting where I hate WEEKENDs. A weekend should be a happy family time. My Wife told me this weekend "Why can't you just go do what you want and let me do the same". Another words if she is home I shouldn't be. So there was too much tension this weekend. Now the Wife is telling me I have to pull money from my old savings account to pay the dentist for an upcomming proceedure. How since I don't make as much money being a supervisor has put us in a bind. Im tired I want companionship, I need intimacy and love and understanding let's do this togeather. Im tired of being reminded of my short commings. This is not the way I wanted this part of my life to be like.