I hate being scared
I hate being scared. Cause then I get pissed because I'm scared. I spent so many years being afraid. Afraid of my father. Afraid of my husband. Afraid of people and what life had in store for me.
I swore I would never be afraid again, especially of a man. I'd like to say, "Damn them all to hell", but all men aren't bad. Just seems like I'm a maniac magnent. hmmm
Don't like that too much. I don't like being so dependent on my husband. But I remind myself, we are partners. We balance each other. We need each other. And yes, he needs me as much as I need him. I will be sooooooooo glad when he is home!
I swore I would never be afraid again, especially of a man. I'd like to say, "Damn them all to hell", but all men aren't bad. Just seems like I'm a maniac magnent. hmmm
Don't like that too much. I don't like being so dependent on my husband. But I remind myself, we are partners. We balance each other. We need each other. And yes, he needs me as much as I need him. I will be sooooooooo glad when he is home!
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hey girl, i envy you. long story short~~because you can write down all you think or feel, well maybe not all, but u know what i mean. i dont always comment on your stuff, i do read it, you sound like a very nice, caring soul. I just have a hard time writing what i think and/or feel. keep doin what your doin !!
Aw Hon, you are too sweet. I will let you in on a little secret. I copy and paste my journal, not all of my post, but my journal to a file at home. Someday maybe after I am dead someone will find my life interesting. I mean wouldn\'t you love to have something from your great great grandmother? About how hard it was in the 1800s? But thanks. Writing down what Im thinking and feeling helps me to look at them a little better. You know, why did I get angry? What had me so anxious? How could I have handled that better?
When I get really anxious I try to analyze what the root of it is and work on that.
I hate taking any more meds that I absolutely have to.