I hate being scared

I hate being scared.  Cause then I get pissed because I'm scared.  I spent so many years being afraid.  Afraid of my father.  Afraid of my husband.  Afraid of people and what life had in store for me.
I swore I would never be afraid again, especially of a man.  I'd like to say, "Damn them all to hell", but all men aren't bad.  Just seems like I'm a maniac magnent.  hmmm
Don't like that too much.  I don't like being so dependent on my husband.  But I remind myself, we are partners.  We balance each other.  We need each other.  And yes, he needs me as much as I need him.  I will be sooooooooo glad when he is home!