I hate anxiety and O.C.D.

Today is another bad day with anxiety.  My O.C.D. is worse today too.  Previous thoughts of when I thought I hit someone with my car are popping in my head.  The thought that doesnot want to leave my sister in law was in the car with me and the thought incident happened at least10 yrs ago.  Does any one else have a fear of hurting other people?  I am trying to just live with the thoughts and let them flow in and out of my brain.  It is sooo freakin hard.  I am sooo tired of the anxiety and O.C.D..  I feel like I have to go to a store to do exposure therapy.  I feel nobody in my family and friends understand how much of an impact it has on my daily life.  I get tired of putting on an act of feeling okay for everybody.  I have O.C.D. thoughts that happened 30 yrs ago.  I just needed to vent thanks for listening.
Becky